Didnt do so hot yesterday in the 9 lap time trial. I got 18th putting me outside the top 16 so that means im done skating for the week. Now im stuck in Marquette watching the top 16 skate. Which is ok I guess, I get to watch and learn. But Im disappointed in myself because I know I could have skated better. My time was 1:39 and if Id skated around the time I did at the Desert Classic a few weeks ago, 1:37.4, I would have made it. I know ive only been skating 4 years, this is my first trials and I should just enjoy being here. And I would enjoy it, if I knew I skated my best. Even if after skating my best I still didnt make top 16, but I cant help but feel like I didnt skate to my potential. Maybe I was too nervous, maybe I didnt prepare well enough or eat the right things before the race, I dont know. But I guess ill just have to work on it and wait for my next chance, heres to the next 4 years!
Ps: id like to add how much it means to me that so many of you (family, distant family, people I wish were family, haha) have sent me emails and cards wishing me luck, its awesome to have that kind of support. Some of my family even sent me checks to help with travel expenses while im here at trials! Just wanted to thank you for being behind me, and I wont let you all down in 4 years you can be sure of that! :)